I can’t think straight after yesterday’s shocker. Every day that goes by, I lose more hope knowing that I can’t do anything to save my Auntie’s life. Who am I to say this but why is God doing this to our family? I know that the question I raised is nearly impossible to be answered but I do know one thing, God knows what he is doing and everything he does has a purpose. I do not understand why would he bring a huge obstacle to our family, just like this one. 

At this point on, I wish I was a doctor. I want my Aunt to be cured and in good shape. I want to take care of her to limitless extents. But I’m not a doctor. I’m nobody. I feel helpless and I can’t bare to witness her in pain anymore. I would gladly hire the best doctors in the world just to cure her but I can’t. I have no means of doing that because the best service requires money and I don’t have that.

I could only pray to God to cure her and let her live longer. 

Please help our family pray for my Auntie. <3

Exodus 23:25
“So you shall serve the Lord your God, and He will bless your bread and your water. And I will take sickness away from the midst of you.”

This morning, I got hit hardest by the message that I read through Facebook: My Auntie Sarah has Leukemia since the 28th and I just found out this morning. I couldn’t make any sudden reactions because it felt like I was at a car crash going at a hundred miles an hour. The feeling is just too much to handle because at first I only thought it was a sick joke someone was trying to pull off but there is/was/never will be a joke. 

I felt so helpless and I was at the point wherein I want to curse God for what he is doing but I just couldn’t even if I wanted to. Maybe he had already planned my auntie’s life but I do pray that he would let her stay with us longer. Even though that I am not directly related to my auntie, it is still very painful to know that a loved one is diagnosed for cancer. 

I couldn’t contain myself when I was on my trip to school. I tried listening to my iPhone’s playlist but it just kept playing sad songs. I felt the chills and tears fell from my eyes when I listened to “You’re Not Alone” by Saosin. The line that goes “You’re not alone, there is more to this I know you will make it out, you will live to tell” surely sent chills down my spine and a slight grin of happiness on my face. I know that my auntie will live to tell the tale of this chapter of her life. 

Please do pray for my Auntie Sarah Moral. It would really mean a lot to me, to us, and especially to her. Thank you guys. 

Psalm 94:19 
In the multitude of my anxieties within me,Your comforts delight my soul.